Saturday, 31 March 2012

Happy April Fool's Day!

I Have NOT forgotten what happened to me a few years ago whilst posting on XSO on April Fools Day. Some bright spark thought it was hilarious to give me the notorious reality check that Scvientologists think is so funny to someone that has been to hell and back via Scientology's Suppressive Person doctrine.Some bright spark thought it hilariously funny to turn my world upside down, yet again, after some 30 odd years of getting myself out of this CULT! As a young child.

Not content with destroying my childhood, they wanted to destroy me, regardless, because at long last I had the audacity to start speaking out. How dare I?

But of course, like many others before I, I speak bullshit and no one listens.

I do not understand, am I a moron, I don't think so. SO tell me after 43 years of exposure of Scientology's OUT ETHICS, WHY have they got an IRS agreement and are considered a religion in some parts of the world? WHY have they been allowed to maintain a degree of authenticity in ENGLAND, the country that is my homeland and one where I knew I had to get back to in order to SURVIVE.And all the while, they have maintained some degree of authenticity because had they not, why is Channel 4 giving them credence as a bona fide religion? With their god damned fake Success stories,of asthma being helped by Scientology? Because David Miscavige supposedly had asthma and was cured? By DIANETICS? I don't think so!

He either never had Asthma to start with or he is just another freak show of the LRH command intention. There are many! Oh those Commodores Messengers!

The Commodore's Messengers in my day, had not an inkling into where this was going to end up, they really did not. I am constantly reminded on ESMB by Veda of those Commodore's Messengers that took over Scientology in the late 60s and early 70s. I don't know anything of this. I left in mid 1969 and I did so because i did not like the way things were going.I then had to extricate myself from the Sea Org, this was at Abellund in Denmark, a Sea Org enterprise, run by the van Stadens, Jill and Joe. Afrikaners,just like Norman Starkey, a totally devout LRHer.

I met someone whilst I starting protesting in London, whom told me they were South African Police Force, I hope to GOD, they were not goofing the floof! Because these people are seriously needed to combat this Scientology Global Terrorism.

Some of YOU may think this is a joke!

IT is NOT!

I don't do April Fools, on the other hand Scientology does, Scientology does FOOLS in multifolds!

I was one of them, as a mere child, "don't ever talk about this, because YOU will not be believed, no body will ever believe YOU because this is so far fetched, nobody will ever believe it" and as a 12 year old kid I believed it.

So what happened to Goran? The MAA aboard the Apollo?

Try googling his name and see what YOU come up with!  According to Rachael Jessop some time ago now, he hanged himself, IF he did I want to know why?

I knew this man well, aboard the Apollo, scary piece of shit, but boy,could he play a piano!

Many of the theories and teachings of scientology are so fanciful that the reaction of the normal individual on hearing them is generally one of amusement and incredulity ... the impression may exist ... that scientology is just harmless nonsense and its followers merely queer people, that its theories are foolish but funny and that not much harm is being done by allowing silly people to have their silly beliefs and carry on their silly practices. Such an attitude is welcomed by the scientologists, for it serves to obscure the real nature of scientology.

-- from the Australian Report{1}

Incredulity of our data and validity. This is our finest asset and gives us more protection than any other single thing. If certain parties thought we were real we would have infinitely more trouble ... without a public incredulity we never would have gotten as far as we have. And now it's too late to be stopped. The protection was accidental but it serves us very well indeed. Remember that the next time the ignorant scoff.

-- L. Ron Hubbard{2}

Tuesday, 27 March 2012

Scientology - Get a Grip - Take Your Way to Happiness Booklets HERE

The Way to Happiness, Scientology You are so 1950s, the way to happiness is not made of oaties, is that porridge oats or flapjacks?

I strongly recommend all you Scientologists with your superiority and Hubbard tech watch this, it's the way to happiness and it wasn't written by L. Ron Hubbard.

East. Grinstead - the town of CULTS

Saturday, 24 March 2012

Tony Ortega's Stats Day

Russia going about it all wrong!

Whilst banning books isn't something I have much faith in, I can see why they have done it and in many respects I think they are right to do so.On the other hand, this is what Scientology does, tries to get books banned and has succeeded in some instances.It's all about propaganda and only getting one side of the story read. Scientology has over the years gone to so much trouble to only get their side of things aired, that it does seem a shame to stop them now, when they look to be such idiots, and that includes the Independent Scientology movement.

The productive side of banning Scientology books in Russia as I see it is the damage the doctrines of Scientology has on young minds. Whilst there are those that insist that the believing in a religion, even a false one that makes people turn into blithering idiots, mentally damaged, abandoning their families all to make money for a corporate organization is alright as long as no one is being harmed, tell me who is not being harmed here?

I spoke to someone recently, whom another critic had told me was a nutter, I might add they'd never met them, just going by their posts.Well what if that person had been damaged by Scientology, and most people have whom have been under the influence of Scientology. This person got into Scientology in their 20s(years of age that is). The critic was a never has had anything to do with Scientology and feels they have a totally different perspective of scientology due to their never having been indoctrinated. That may be so, but what about the young adult or child or children indoctrinated at a very young age? If Scientology does enough damage to people indoctrinated in their 20s for them to need therapy, how is the young child whose parents have forced them to learn the doctrine of Scientology and nothing else meant to cope in another world when they have left Scientology?

As I have said before, I have spoken to both parents and children whom have grown up in Scientology and they all needed therapy. Smurf once said to me on a message board he thought I should get therapy. I got out on my own over 43 years ago, I've never had therapy and I don't need it now, but by god I could have done with it 43 years ago. There are times within those 43 years I could have done with therapy. Overall though it seems that adults find it the hardest to make adjustments, they just can't seem to believe they have been taken for the biggest scam of their lives.Which is why I believe many of those long term adults still believe there is some good in what they have been indoctrinated into.

I am lucky and I know it, I got out at a very young age.It very nearly was the death of me, and that is where therapy would have been put to good use.Now, things are very different, very different indeed.I don't need Independent Scientologists to tell me I don't know what I'm talking about because I was never trained in 'the tech', the 'tech' these people were trained in is a load of clap trap "hip, hip,hip, hip, hip, hip hooray!" When you find yourself clapping and hip, hip hooraying to a photo of L. Ron Hubbard, know this:

As if these people did not need any more totalitarianism.

There are people in this world who know no better, and there are people in this world whom should KNOW better, but they won't because it will cause havoc with their lifestyle to which they have become accustomed.David Miscavidge is one of them as was LRH. Tom Cruise is another, as is Oprah Winfrey. Fame and Fortune has put them up on a plinth and we'll all bow down to them because they are famous. Get a LIFE! Just one of the reasons I don't watch TV any more.

It's all about corporations and money, Scientology is just one of them, but it's the one I HATE the most because it robbed me of a childhood and it robbed many children of their childhoods, and it also robbed many adults of their lives and their children's lives and their grand children's lives, those that lived to tell the tale.

One of the reasons I love the native American Indians, they told their stories, and passed it on from generation to generation, in song and dance, in bloodshed and love, in the hope that the white man would see the error of their ways. No hope there!

Money, greed, power and down right bloody mindedness and smashing one's name into history is far more important in today's world than caring for one's fellow human beings.

Bring on the Vulture Ministers:

How many vultures does it take to strip the carcase of the Scientology Corporation?

Obviously far more than the Independent Scientologists can muster, because they still support the doctrines that the vultures prey on. OR is that PRAY to?

Hip, Hip, Hip, Hip,Hip, Hip Hooray!


Touch that Spot on the Wall.

Brainwashing techniques from L. Ron Hubbard

Friday, 23 March 2012

This is the LAPD!

This is the LAPD = Los Angeles Police Department:

This is the London Metropolitan Police:

This is Scientology in the United Kingdom:

This is Scientology in Russia:

I also am not for the banning of books, scientology does this repeatedly, try and buy John Duigan's book 'The Complex' in Ottacker's UK, owned by a Russian , I'm told, or even in your friendly store, it's been there for years, every town in the UK has one, WH Smith. WHY can you not buy a book about an ex scientologist in these bookstores, even when they have been promoted in newspapers? If you have a really good explanation, then please let me know, co$ I can't see one.

Lawyers for the complaining member, a noncelebrity, want to keep it that way: They've demanded the "destruction" of the books.

Smith says: "We definitely want to offer it to our customers. We just don't have the inventory."

Duignan, a Scientologist for 22 years, alleges in his book that members were subjected to sleep deprivation and "brain-washing" and that punishments were "meted out to anyone who transgresses, including children." When he left, Scientology's Office of Special Affairs "had people posted outside my parents' house in Ireland," he tells us.

Duignan, 45, says he began to question the church's priorities at a 2004 gala in England where Cruise was honored. "I'd been trying to change the image of the church by volunteering in disadvantaged communities," he tells us. But the "party was of such unbelievable opulence, I began to see the church was all about money.

"I directly know 20 members who went insane or committed suicide," Duignan says. "I personally went through a period of insanity. I'm hoping this book can be a lifeline to my former comrades."

Scientology spokeswoman Karin Pouw argues that Duignan's book is filled with "false accusations," that he was only a "mid-level administrator," that there was no "cloak and dagger machination" to stop him from leaving and that "no one has ever committed suicide at the facility where Mr. Duignan worked in the U.K."

I escaped the cult just over a year ago, having been an ultra orthodox member of its militant inner circle for 20 years. During my last year in the cult, I was involved in a plan to infiltrate a relatively important local government institution. Ironically, my subversive mission exposed Scientology for what it is, and led to my life in "wog world."

I had been more or less cut off from the real world since 1986. Access to TV, Internet and other media has always been discouraged, but since 1990, Internet use for the Sea Organization member, with the exception of those in the intelligence and policing branch, has been strictly verboten.

My work granted me considerable latitude with regard to typical organizational rules and restrictions, and the fact that I was in a rather senior position a long distance from the cult HQ in Sussex, gave me unprecedented freedom to do internet searches to trace key targets for the purposes of my mission.

One evening I Googled 'Scientology' and came across posts, essays and exposes of the cult, very often from colleagues I had known over the years and who had disappeared into the real world. A Scientologist describes the world outside as 'the wog world'; the unenlightened humanoid is a 'wog'. The cult member who 'falls from grace' and leaves the church is described as a 'degraded being', destined for a short pain-filled life and reincarnation as a lunatic.

Thursday, 22 March 2012

Michael Pattinson's Story.

This gentlemen has done the entire 'bridge to total freedom'
listen to his one page sworn as true-notarized statement.
The author wishes this to be re-posted widely for the world to
know the true nature of Scientology.

Michael Pattinson
Beverly Hills, Ca 90211
20 September 1997


I strongly feel that it is my civic duty to bring to the attention of
the competent authorities of the United States and other concerned countries
a matter of severe abuses and destructive activities by the "Church" of
Scientology. I am at their disposition for more information on all of this.

I was shocked at the use of top celebrities by Scientology to try and
give an impression of it which, per my own experiences, is a false impression.
When I compare the ridiculous charges made by Scientology against the
German government with what I know Scientology (underlined) has been
doing itself I find a very strong similarity indeed. I have decided to speak out
about this publicly.

I was, until earlier this year, one of Scientology's "celebrities". I
am a professional artist, having a 25 year career internationally with over
99% sales. I was in Scientology for 23 years, did very many courses, and
reached the highest available level of "New O.T.8." My knowledge of the inner
workings of Scientology is extensive. I have information about the many
instances of abuses of current and former Scientology members and of lies
Scientology has generated about itself to give a wrong public impression.

Among the many things I can relate, here are just a few from recent times:

1) From 1991 to 1996 I was the subject of viscous machinations by
several "churches" of Scientology to destroy my name and repute, and
to involve me in expensive "justice handling" within the organization.
Apart from the horrific emotional stress over five years it cost me well over
$120,000 to clear my name of accusations of things I had never done
in the first place! I have full documentation of all these multiple abuses.

2) In June of 1996 I was held against my will in the Scientology, Clearwater,
Florida facility and "ordered" to pay $7,400 before they would let me out
of the room. I did not want to pay for what the two staff members insisted
I must have, and what ensued was a verbal battle, emotional trauma and
an attempt at financial extortion. After a time I managed to escape the
physical detention, but two "Sea Org" members chased me right out into
the streets of Clearwater to try to recapture me. I did not pay the money. This
incident is on file with the Clearwater Police Department.

3) In June of 1991 I was forced to pay, despite vehement protestations, the
sum of $7,400 to Scientology on the "Freewinds" ship. The ruse used
on that Wednesday was that if I did not pay then they would withhold my passport
from me until I did pay. They did so and I had to pay the money to get
it back.

4) At the end of 1996 I was subjected to [a] horrible kind of "religious
deprogramming" in the Scientology "Fort Harrison Hotel". This was done,
using an "E-meter", by a top official of the "Religious technology Center" (RTC)
namely Mr. Marty Rathbun. I was interrogated for several hours on the most
intimate personal religious beliefs (Christian) and his actions were designed
clearly to get me to give up my Christian religious beliefs in exchange
for RTC's "eligibility authorization" to read a confidential publication
about a defective "OT level" I had previously completed (OT 7).
His utter contempt for my religious beliefs were all to apparent. He felt
that all other religions apart from Scientology should be destroyed and
probably would be in time by Scientology, using RTC's programs
of "eligibility's" as the means of forcing people to give up other faiths.

I also had to undergo many hours of 'false data removal",,,to try to
"get me to realize" that the ONLY valid religion was Scientology.

It did not work.

My considered, personal opinion is that Scientology is definitely

These are a few of the many things I can testify to.

I declare under penalty of perjury under California Laws that the above
is true and correct per my own personal experiences.

20 September 1997 Sea Beach California

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Wednesday, 21 March 2012

Hubbard's Gulags :RPF's RPF (RVY)

Hubbard's Gulags: RPF's RPF (RVY)

From: (Robert Vaughn Young)
Subject: Hubbard's Gulags: RPF's RPF (RVY)
Date: 24 Sep 1997 21:45:15 GMT
Martin Hunt asked and called into question if there is an RPF's RPF in Scientology and if children are assigned to the RPF.* Yes on both counts. I was on the RPF for 16 months and while there were no children while I was there (the youngest was, I believe, about 16), I had spoken with others who had served with children and I even met one youngster (about 12) who had been on the children's RPF on the ship.
* Note: I have no doubt there is an RPF's RPF. In my very first post to alt.religion.scientology, I asked for people who had experience in this prison camp within the cult of Scientology to come forth. The evidence for the existence of this prison camp system is overwhelming, and I have seen the RPF with my own eyes (and supervised it for one day). I did not, in fact, call the existence of this organization into question, nor the placement of children on it. - Martin Hunt.
As to the RPF's RPF, there is one and I was assigned to it. It is where one goes when one first goes to the RPF. Let me tell you about it, using their definitions. Scientology officials like to say that the RPF (Rehabilitation Project Force - Hubbard's double-speak for gulag) is where staff can go to be "redeemed" and it is all "voluntary." That is a lie and it is proven in their own literature.
First, the RPF and its rules were Hubbard's creation. There is an "RPF Series" that lays down those rules. He created it on the ship Apollo. Those assigned to the RPF are from the Sea Organization and despite the "spin" that is put on it, people were and are sent there for the most ridiculous reasons. Many times, they were sent by whim or in moments of rage from Hubbard or a senior. It was a way to punish and to reprogram ("rehabilitate") the person by putting them in terrible conditions, with long work hours (6 am to 6 pm), short meal breaks (30 minutes with Hubbard's instructions that they are to be leftovers from the crew meals), little sleep, no family or social connections and the rest of one's time (5 hrs per night) being spent studying Hubbard or undergoing interrogations where one confesses one's real or imagined crimes. These "crimes" are written down and to be used against one, as needed. This can go on for years.
The RPF gives a chilling, real example of what Hubbard wanted to do to "delete" people from society, to "remove" them "without sorrow," that has already been posted here to alt.religion.scientology. Unable to do so to society in general, he was able to establish these programs in Scientology, first on the ship and then ashore. (Parallels can be found in the "reeducation" camps run by the Chinese where one goes and works and confesses so he/she can reenter the society.)
The RPF's RPF is literally an RPF within the RPF, a gulag within the gulag. What you are about to read as to the rules is basically the RPF's alredy brutal restrictions applied once AGAIN. Let me quote the definition of "RPF's RPF" from their Admin Dictionary. The definition itself is one long paragraph in the book. I will break it apart into the sections, merely for formatting purposes and ease on the eyes. I will insert my comments in [brackets].
"RPF's RPF, the following restrictions are applied to members: (1) segregated from other RPF members with regard to work, messing, berthing, musters and any other command activity. [This is already done to RPF members. They are segregated from the rest of the staff. They cannot speak to staff or be with them, unless they are spoken to and are assigned to work in the area. If spoken to, they must address all as "sir." On the RPF's RPF, one is segregated again.]
"(2) no pay. [RPF pay was standardly $5 per week, per Hubbard's orders. And it was not unusual to be on the RPF for more than a year. I was on it for 16 months, which meant my income was $80 for 16 months of labor. Some were there for years. Richard Tinklenberg (sp?) - also from Author Services, Inc. - had been there for about a year and a half when I arrived. He was still there when I left.]
"(3) no training. [The only training you get on the RPF is RPF training, to help you be "redeemed" or "rehabilitated." No training means that your "progress" is interrupted and you will not be able to "graduate."]
"(4) no auditing. [Same as 3. It merely means you cannot "progress." However, one does write up "crimes" for the MAA. See below.]
"(5) may only work on mud boxes in the E/R. May not work with RPF members. [The mud boxes were the filthiest place on the ship, in the engine room. What it basically came down to - when applied to RPFs off the ship - is that those on the RPF's RPF are given the dirtiest, filthiest, most degrading tasks possible and only those. Being isolated from the rest of the RPF also has its impact for one is a complete outcast, a leper, after having striven to be a team member. The apparency being created is that one has not one friend.]
(6) six hours sleep maximum. [Note: _maximum_. The rest of the day is spent at hard, degrading labor, with no friend, and then one gets six hours sleep MAXIMUM. Sleep deprivation is cited by experts as a key element to create what is often called "brainwashing" or "mind control" and here is where Hubbard really uses it to break a person.]
(7) is under the RPF MAA [Master At Arms] for all matters, including production. The RPF MAA may designate another to supervise their production. [This is Hubbard's way of saying the person is to be kept under guard. They cannot even go to the bathroom alone. The MAA is the only person they can speak to. The MAA is the RPF's "ethics officer." He/she drives the group with punishments.]
(8) Standard ethics penalties that apply to them to be triple for each offense they are found guilty of, until they fully join the RPF of their own determinism. {Here is the truth about the "voluntary" nature of the RPF. The person is kept on the RPF's RPF, overworked and deprived of sleep with triple penalties of already brutal penalties until they "join the RPF of their own determinism." It is, in fact, where one starts, before one even joins the RPF.]]
(9) may communicate only with the RPF MAA or his designated assistant. [This means exactly what it says and includes no communication with family. One cannot speak or write to or receive communication from relative, spouse or children. The "segregation" is complete. So if one wants to see/speak with family, one decides to "join the RPF of their own determinism." Are you reading this Chick Corea and John Travolta when you complain about how Scientologists are treated?]
(10) may not join RPF fully until acceptable amends made to all RPF members. [This is called an "amends project" and must be done in one's own "free" time. The "amends' might be as simple as agreeing to do everyone's wash for a week. The catch is that there is no free time, except in one's sleep time, so what finally happens is the person gets no sleep at all or only a couple of hours a night, in order to do the "amends."]
FCO 2990-2 [This is the directive from which the above is taken. It is a Flag Conditions Order titled "RPF Assignment" dated 24 Apr 74.]
The definition then goes on with a bracketed remark, apparently inserted by the editor of the volume and to mean that it was not part of the FCO. It gives further insight.
"The first RPF's RPF assignment was made because the person considered their RPF assignment amusing, an award and was therefore unable to recognize a need for redemption or any means to effect it. Until such time as the person recognized this need and of their own self-determinism requested to be include in RPF redemption actions, the restrictions applied."
In other words, punishment was increased until the person, "of their own self-determinism," gave in.
Can you say, coercion?
But this is Hubbard's idea of "self-determinism."
Welcome to double-think.
As a final note, and to show how "ethics" are applied in the RPF, the following is taken from the same Administrative Dictionary.
"REHABILITATION PROJECT FORCE MAA, responsible to the RPF Bosun [the RPF member in charge of the RPF] for the ethics of the section leaders to keep ethics in on their sections[the RPF is broken into sections, like military sections - there is no set number so an RPF of 50 people might have six or seven sections], and if he [the MAA] has to take ethics action on a section member, that member's leader suffers the same penalty also." This is what drives the RPF, that the section leaders are threatened with suffering the same penalty of each of their section members if the MAA must step in, so you can bet it can get brutal, on people already deprived of sleep. To complain or noncomply can send one to the RPF's RPF until one "changes one's mind" and agrees to the program.
So the next time Chick Corea or John Travolta complain about the treatment of Scientologists, would someone let them show them either this post or the entry from the Administrative Dictionary and ask them to protest how Scientologists are treated INSIDE Scientology? (Don't be surprised if an Orwellian edit on this definition is done, if not done already.)
And also pass it on to those who say there is no form of "cult mind control" that goes on in Scientology. Better yet, let THEM do the RPF's RPF and keep them there until they change THEIR minds "of their own self-determinism" and let's see what they say.
Robert Vaughn Young

A Childhood in Scientology.

In Scientology-think, children are regarded as the bodies for the next generation:

" It has been been clearly proven that a Thetan is immortal, cannot really experience death nor have it erased by forgetting about it. It is appropriate for the Thetan, who is going to live again, that he urgently try to create something for the future in order to have something to which he can return. Out of this comes the concern about sex. There have to be more bodies for the next life."
L. Ron Hubbard, "The Fundamentals of Thought," page 77  "This is approximately the spiritual state of mind in which a Thetan usually has discovered that his body is dead. His main thought is take up another body. He can do that by finding a small child that he resurrect to life. But normally he goes into a body at the point in time that we describe as the assumption. In most cases, the assumption occurs several minutes after birth. The baby is born,  and then the Thetan takes the baby.That is the usual procedure. But the Thetan has perhaps already been in the area for a long time. How do Thetans behave who find that they suddenly no longer have bodies? The behave like people. They hang around people until they see a  pregnant woman and then follow her along the street."
L. Ron Hubbard: "Have you lived this Life Before?" page 50
How important it is in Scientology to indoctrinate children at an early age to become uncritical fanatics is shown in the following quote:
"Scientology for children could in practice very well be the most important single area in this religion's efforts."
L. Ron Hubbard: "Handbook for Ministers" Kopenhagen 1980 auf Seite 449 "The cases of tomorrow are the cases of children today. Whole civilizations have changed because somebody changed the children."
L. Ron Hubbard: "Techniken für Kinder Prozessing" in "Ability"  Ausgabe 110 aus 1959 (deutsche  Ausgabe)
For the child in question, a childhood in Scientology is the equivalent of no childhood at all. It is more like suiting the child up with a totalitarian system and its often brutal, ruthless regulations and directives. In this case the question could be asked of whether freedom of belief might not have its limits?

Howard Schomer's Story.

Executive summary:

"During the period 1974-1977, I know it was almost impossible to leave the Organization and the only way to leave was to escape. All kinds of threats would be made and an individual would be subject to 'Sec Checks' (Security Checks). I myself was subject to two horrible such 'Sec Checks' where I was deprived of sleep, food, water, and toilet facilities. I was punched, spat upon, threatened, intimidated and completely humiliated as a human being."
[Handwritten notes are initialed "HS" in a circle. -ed.K]


I, Howard Schomer, hereby state under the pains and penalties of perjury that I have personal knowledge of the following:
1. I first became aware of Scientology in April or May, 1968 while I was living in Los Angeles, California. Shortly thereafter I participated in a "franchise" in Tarzana, California.
2. In late August or September 1970, I joined the Sea Organization (Sea Org), an elite group of Scientologists. In order to join the Sea Org, you had to pledge your support by signing a billion year contract. I joined the Sea org in Los Angeles and was sent to the "American [S]aint Hill Org" (ASHO). I was at ASHO until June of 1971 when I was sent to the Flag Ship for training.
3. I did not, in fact, proceed directly to the Flag Ship "Apollo". I was sent to land base in Tangiers, Morocco, known as the Tours Reception Area (TRC). I remained there for one and one-half months and was then sent to the Apollo, a ship
Dfts V
May 14 1986
"Lea E. Kroil, NP?"
[signed] Schomer
owned [handwritten: the Operation and Transport Company (OTC)] and operated by L. Ron Hubbard. I remained on board the Apollo from July 1971 through October 1975, when the ship was sold — and we moved to a land base. I was on board the Apollo throughout that period except for the period July 1972 – February 1973 when I was sent to ASHO on a mission. [handwritten: the ship was later sold.]
4. In October 1975, I left the Apollo for land base in Daytona Beach, California and in December 1975 we moved to Clearwater, Florida where the headquarters for Flag were re-established.
5. "Flag" or headquarters for the Church of Scientology were originally located aboard the Apollo and later transferred to Clearwater when the Apollo was abandoned.
6. I was a member of the Scientology organization from 1968 until December 1982, when I managed to escape. As a member, I held many positions in the Organization. Many of my positions aboard the Apollo were in the upper echelons of the Scientology administration and when I later moved to Clearwater I worked in the FSO Treasury Division which handled all disbursements of funds for operational expenses for the Clearwater base.
7. My tenure on board the Apollo and later in Clearwater overlapped the period that Tonja Burden was in Scientology. I
was familiar with Tonja because I had a young daughter, Valerie, who was also a Commodore Messenger and who was very good friends with Tonja throughout this period.
8. When I first joined Scientology many representations were made to me which I later learned were untrue and outright lies. They included the fact that the Church of Scientology was a law-abiding, non-profit and benevolent organization. The Church was founded by LRH who claimed he was a highly accomplished individual; I was later told that LRH was a war hero, had several degrees from institutions of higher learning, had cured himself of crippling wounds and blindness with his technology. I later learned these were all falsehoods. LRH had developed an elaborate technology and, in order to learn this "technology" or "tech", one had to go through a process known as "auditing" [handwritten: , and "training."]
9. During auditing, a person is told to reveal to his "auditor" all of his innermost personal secrets. The "preclear" (or person undergoing auditing) is connected to an "E Meter" or a galvanic skin response meter which is similar to a primitive lie detector. Through the use of this machine, the veracity of the "preclear's" responses are tested. The "preclear" pays for these sessions, which I did, as well as paying for the sessions of my daughter, Valerie, prior to joining the Sea Org. Each "preclear" is told that the auditing
sessions are strictly confidential and similar to a priest/penitent relationship. The trust in one's auditor and the confidentiality of the sessions was a critical element for me and one which I believe in. I later learned that auditing is not confidential and that frequently members auditing files [handwritten: folders] are culled for sensitive information to be used to blackmail or intimidate a person who threatens the Organization in any way. This includes attempting to leave the Organization. I personally was present when members of the Guardian's Office would "cull" files and look for sensitive information. Many of my B-1 friends related stories of culling auditing files to me.
10. When I first joined the Sea org I was told that we were an elite group or the "creme de la creme". We were the most important members of Scientology, the most dedicated on the planet and, as such, were treated with the "red carpet". I soon learned very differently once I boarded the Apollo. This was the period of time that Tonja Burden was also aboard the Apollo or Flag.
11. It was clear on Flag that everything was controlled and run by LRH, known as the Commodore. His wife, Mary Sue Hubbard (hereinafter referred to as "MSH"), was the Deputy Commodore and, as second in command, her word and orders had the same potency and importance as LRH. MSH also controlled the branch of Scientology known as the Guardian's Office. They were
responsible for most of the criminal activity, intimidation and harassive tactics perpetrated by the Scientology Organization.
12. I quickly learned that the life aboard the ship was run in a very military-like fashion with none of the ceremonies of benevolence that one would expect from a church. At the top of the hierarchy was LRH and every member of the Sea Org worked for his benefit and at his command.
13. The conditions aboard the Apollo were generally deplorable. The [handwritten: most] quarters were cramped and damp. They were roach infested. [handwritten: some] Married couples were assigned to cabins in the aft end of the ship. There was little privacy, the walls were paper thin, and the food was both inadequate and atrocious. By contrast, the berthing areas for LRH and MSH were plush, immaculately clean and stately. Both LRH and MSH were aware of the apparent filthy conditions on board the remainder of the ship. Everyone worked extremely long hours, including the children, and there was little time for sleep and virtually no time for recreation. Conditions for those in the Rehabilitation Projects Force (hereinafter referred to as "RPF") were even worse.
14. When I first boarded the Apollo, I was told that children had to be at least 12 years of age to come on board. My daughter, Valerie, was only 10 and, therefore, I placed her
in the care of another Scientology family. The rule later changed and at age 10 1/2 years, Valerie came aboard the ship in November 1972 when the Cadet Org was formed. At almost the same time, I was transferred to ASHO and, thus, we were further separated until I re-boarded the Apollo in March 1973.
15. When I first joined the Sea Org and later aboard the Apollo, I was told that Valerie would receive an education and that we would remain a close family unit. Valerie received no formal education aboard the Apollo and when we later moved to land base in Clearwater, she was allowed to attend school only because it was mandatory under the laws of the State of Florida.
16. On board the Apollo, Valerie became a Messenger, first for MSH and later a Commodore Messenger for LRH. She became good friends with Tonja Burden since they were both Commodore Messengers. The Messengers served as personal servants for both LRH and MSH. They were all [handwritten: ("all" replaced with "mostly")] young girls who worked very hard and saw to every whim and fancy of LRH and MSH. They would be responsible for every detail in the lives of LRH, including grooming, the running of messages and developing plans to be carried out worldwide. Later at land base, I heard they were involved in the coding and decoding of telexes to the Scientology Organizations and LRH worldwide.
17. While on board the Apollo, we often worked for 12-14 hours a day and longer, if necessary, if our "stats" were
down. The pay for this work was approximately $12 per week. When I later worked for ASI (Author Services, Inc.), I received approximately $160 gross or $125 net a week. From this pay was [handwritten: I had to pay] subtracted money for room, board and medical expenses.
18. We received very little medical or dental care. On board the Apollo, there was never any doctor or dentist.
19. As I previously explained, life in Scientology was military-like and for any infraction of a rule, one could be sent to the EPF or RPF. I spent a large amount of time [handwritten: 3 months] in the RPF and my daughter, Valerie, was in both the EPF and RPF when she was a mere 11 years old. Both the EPF and RPF were like prison. While in the EPF, Valerie was forced to work long hours washing clothes [handwritten: and cleaning cabins]. We barely had a chance to see each other because of the long hours and in order to get any liberty to see Valerie I had to petition MSH.
20. The RPF was even worse than the EPF. The slightest infraction or decrease in productivity could result in a messenger appearing and ordering you to the RPF. The RPF came into existence in January 1974 and all crew aboard the Apollo lived in constant fear of being sent there. While in the RPF I had virtually no time [handwritten: not allowed] to see Valerie since I was working the whole time. [handwritten: , and the rules of the RPF.]
21. Life in the RPF was despicable and degrading. You lost all sense of self-esteem, freedom and human dignity. It was a world unto itself and you felt like a leper or a member of the caste "The Untouchables". You could not speak to other crew members unless you were spoken to and you had to "run" everywhere. The conditions were even worse than on board the regular quarters, damp, cold and, again, roach infested. The food was substandard and members of the RPF only ate after others had eaten. Often there was little leftover food. Members of the RPF were forced to wear black boiler suits. We slept very little everyday and awoke each morning to swab the decks. We were allowed 30 seconds to shower and had to be up and ready in the morning within 15 minutes. There was supposed to be time for study and auditing, but this rarely occurred, [handwritten: except in the RPF where it was the only way to get out, was to complete a training & auditing program given to you.]
22. While on board the Apollo and later in Clearwater, we were trained to lie to customs and government officials. I had first-hand knowledge of this because one of my positions aboard the Apollo from March 1974 to November 1975 was as the equipment, road manager and advance man for the "Apollo Troupe Org" which was an entertainment group, [handwritten: and I dealt first hand with them.]
23. When the Apollo docked in a foreign port, members of the entertainment troupe would perform in the various ports. As advance man, I was specifically told not to disclose that we
were a Scientology ship, but rather told to tell "shore stories". We stated that we were a part of an international management corporation and if confronted with any connection to Scientology, we stated they were merely a client of ours.
24. This deception continued when we moved to land base and first brought property in Clearwater. We moved there under the guise of being "The United Churches of Florida". We never stated we were the Church of Scientology. The land in Florida was bought by a sham corporation, the Southern Land Development Corporation and leased to United Churches of Florida. Later the lies we had perpetrated leaked out and they learned that we were, in fact, the Church of Scientology and had moved there under false pretenses.
25. Once we moved to the land base, I became the head of RAM (Records, Assets and Materiel) at Flag in December of 1975 which was a part of FSO (Flag Service Org). As head of RAM, I was responsible for all insurance [for] buildings [handwritten: + auto, etc.] and banking for the entire Flag Land Base [handwritten: except the FBO & SOR (item?)]. I handled [handwritten: the accounting for] all money disbursements and remained at Flag in Florida from December 1975 to march 1982, when I was sent to ASI (Author Services, Inc.) in Los Angeles, California.
26. As head of treasury and later at ASI, it became readily apparent to me who was controlling all assets for the Church.
All Scientology monies worldwide were controlled by LRH and then second in command MSH while she remained Deputy Commodore. While at ASI, LRH remained in control with Pat and Anne Broeker and then David Miscavige in the chain of command.
27. When I first arrived at Flag in 1975, FSO was an internal part of the Church of Scientology of California (CSC), as were every other Scientology group which were all controlled by LRH. In early 1981, the sham "corporate sort out" occurred to protect the Scientology assets and LRH from investigations by the IRS, FBI or other governmental agencies. This "sort out" was deliberately perpetrated to shield LRH and the enormous assets.
28. New organizations like FSO, CSI, CS Estates Org and CSC [handwritten: existing corp.] were incorporated to hold assets. They were merely sham corporations and were exclusively controlled by LRH through a chain of command. Any management and corporate officers were mere figureheads and each person still reported through the same channels and had no independent decision-making as to the Church's assets.
29. The purpose of the corporate "sort out" was to prevent the government from getting any of the assets. I had many conversations with other top level scientologists, including Mike Rinder, Sam Licciardi, Wendell and Ellen Reynolds and
Jeannie Williamson that we were to hide LRH's assets and we were primarily to shield LRH from "inurement", in other words, from liability for taxes or tax fraud.
30. During my years in Scientology, I became aware of the criminal operations that were going on through the Guardians Office (G.O.) I knew from friends in the G.O., and first-hand, that they had been gathering data and harassing people pursuant to the "Fair Game Doctrine". I knew of specific individuals who had been attacked, including Mayor Cazares of Clearwater.
31. After I escaped from Scientology in December of 1982, I learned about G.O. harassment after a person left the group. I know that anyone could be declared a "suppressive person" and, in fact, even though the Church denies it, I have been called a "suppressive person" by scientologists to my face. I know this makes me subject to the "Fair Game Doctrine" and it is very frightening.
32. During the period 1974-1977, [handwritten: as well as the rest of my tenure in the Sea Org] I know it was almost impossible to leave the Organization and the only [handwritten: sure] way to leave was to escape. All kinds of threats would be made and an individual would be subject to "Sec Checks" (Security Checks). I myself was subject to two horrible such "Sec Checks" where I was deprived of sleep, food, water, and toilet facilities. I was punched, spat upon, threatened, intimidated and completely
humiliated as a human being. In order to leave, people were forced to sign releases against their will as I was. There was no choice in signing the releases because you were [handwritten: threatened to be] imprisoned and threatened with criminal "frame ups" and possible kidnapping.
33. The organization also threatened individuals with massive bills and debts which were all fraudulent. At the time, I did not know that the debts were unenforceable and I was frightened that I could be [handwritten: responsible for these debts] imprisoned if I left Scientology without paying these debts. I, myself, had sent bills to individuals for debts incurred, including a $200,000 bill to Jim Isaacson when I worked at ASI. It was ironic that the Organization could control us through fear by alleging debts which they claimed we had incurred when, in fact, we had worked endless days with little pay and inadequate housing and food. Such was the intimidation and fear they wielded over everyone.
34. All of the policies of harassment, fear, intimidation, threats were all created by LRH who directed the enforcement through MSH and the entire chain of command. Both LRH and MSH were aware of the policies and their perpetration because they, in fact, ordered them into operation and oversaw their completion. These policies were all in operation during Tonja Burden's tenure in Scientology and permeated every aspect of the Organization.

Aurther Doyle's Story.

Sea Org Children: The Final Solution

Sunday, 09 May 2010 13:57

"All the problems of the world -- child labor, corruption - are symtoms of a spiritual disease; lack of compassion." Tenzin Gyatso, the 14th Dalai Lama

My parents joined the SO in 1980. Before that I spent a day with my mother and father each week. As things were in the seventies, my parents worked all day in a class IV org.

At the beginning of their SO career, things were alright. We had breakfast and dinner together every night. I remember there were these cooks in PBC (Pac Base Crew) in the morning, who would ask you how you wanted your eggs, and they'd make them in front of you, super fast.

We had an hour for family time, in addition to the 45-minute dinnertime, all of which was spent with family. In PAC we'd walk up Vermont to Thrifty's (now Rite-Aid), and get a double scoop of ice cream for 30 cents. Other times we'd go to Barnsdale Park and hang out or walk south on Vermont and get a doughnut or something.

The Cadet Org was an adventure, though. We used to work all day after school. We even had some playtime which was spent playing warball at the ATA (Apollo Training Academy, a school that the kids in PAC attended located across Fountain Ave from Bridge Publications).

In 1983 I did my EPF. I was eleven at the time and the materials were, to say the least, way too difficult for a child. I spent seven months on the EPF. It was designed to take three weeks! I was fortunate that, at the time, families had their own berthing and I lived with my mother and father. This made everything worthwhile. I saw my mom and dad at night for a little while before going to sleep, and that precious little contact with my parents would make a world of difference.

I remember when Benjamin Rinder was born in the Fountain Building. I also remember when many kids were brought into this world and how incredibly theta that was. And while conditions were far from ideal, families in the early eighties were encouraged to have kids.

There was the CEO (Cadet Estate Org) that took care of babies and small kids. It was far from ideal, but it really could have been perfected as opposed to destroying it altogether.  The CEO was demolished by the PAC RPF in 1990 to make way for the Celebrity Center event structure. There were some great plus points with it. Babies got their barley formula and so on.

There were many outpoints with this system, too, but it was better than no system and no children.

At the time of LRH's death in 1986 (I had been in the SO since 1983), I was in CMO. In '87 family time was cancelled. This was a huge upset, I was still a kid after all.

After that, all the way to the present, I have had a grand total of ONE day off with my mom and dad. That is ONE DAY in 27 years.

There are many people who really never got to know their own parents, as they spent so little time with them! If you watch Jenna Miscavige's ABC interview, this resonates in her words.

I am no longer in the Sea Org and today my wife and I have a baby. I have spent more time with my baby than all the time my parents ever spent with me. And while they were good parents and meant well, they did not get to see much of me at all.

But that was only the beginning. Far worse was yet to come.

Beyond 1984

One of the single most suppressive "policies" of the Church of Scientology came out on September 28, 1986, as Flag Order No. 3905. It was not written by LRH, but by Guillaume Lesevre, ED Int who acted on the order of David Miscavige. This was the infamous Flag Order that stopped Sea Org couples from having children.

[Note from Thoughtful: Haydn James (T Paine) was the Commanding Officer PAC Base Crew at the time. ED Int wrote to him and gave him the problem of how to handle the growing number of kids in the Sea Org (400 in PAC and climbing) plus elsewhere. He said Sea Org resources shouldn't be used for the raising of kids (which if the Geico Caveman were told that, he would say indignantly, “Why not?”) and furthermore Guillaume said since Haydn was responsible for one of the largest concentrations of Sea Org kids he could solve the problem.

[It was clear from Guillaume’s comm that he was not the originator of the cycle. Plus all later evidence regarding kids and families in the Sea Org (canceling of family time, etc.) showed the origination point was David Miscavige without any shadow of a doubt.

[Anyway Haydn made up his analysis and proposed an issue. ED Int (aka, Miscavige) shot it down and forced ED Int to write his own -- the Sept 86 issue. No doubt DM set the direction and the boundaries.

[Haydn’s analysis showed a lot of kids in PAC were from parents on minor posts and who produced little -- some had up to 5 kids; what was missing was the normal function of routine Fitness Boards. Haydn argued that producing Sea Org members working 70 or 80 hours a week for $30 pay were valuable and that the Sea Org should foot the bill to help them raise their kids. Non producers could be eased back into civil life by use of existing and standard means -- Fitness Boards.

On April 3rd, 1991 the issue was reissued under Guillaume’s name shortly after he sent his two beautiful children to live with their grandmother in Italy, never to see them again.
This Flag Order is, I believe, one of the single most vicious policies the "church" has ever adopted. Not only did it denigrate and degrade the institution of marriage, it resulted in the neglect and abuse of hundreds of children, the outright abortion of hundreds more. Here’s a quote from that horribly-written issue:

"The Sea Org is not set up to handle or take care of children. Sea Org members getting [sic] children has resulted in an unpractical burden on the Sea Org units and inhibited their efficiency. No SO installation has the job of making SO members for twenty years from now."  Flag Order 3905-1 CHILDREN, SEA ORG MEMBERS AND SEA ORG ORGS, 3 April 1991

"GETTING children"????!!  “Making SO members for twenty years from now”? This is the language used to virtually abolish the second dynamic?

It is unbelievable! The results from this: Hundreds of forced abortions. The horrors of "persuaded" abortions and the horrific stress and guilt on mothers-to-be. But it gets worse. Miscavige and Guillaume with a clever twist of phrase turned the action of having children into a “crime” to be “hidden” in secrecy:

"... withholding the fact that there are pregnant SO members in the org, will result in a Committee of Evidence on the org PCO, Dir Routing and Personnel, HAS, Supercargo and Captain/CO as well as the SO members concerned."

Yes, let's Comm-Ev pregnant women!

David Miscavige and Guillaume Lesevre, the shame of all those young lives never lived is upon you! No wonder you Guillaume find it impossible to throw off the yoke of Miscavige and come out of the Hole. And you said Marty had a "violent streak"? With one order you virtually murder how many children?

"The overt doth speak loudly in accusation, Shakespeare re-written."
LRH, Study Tapes, Lecture #2

From then on many, many men and women in the Sea Org were denied their human right to have children. This vicious policy denies families and degrades marriage and violates one of the most basic LRH principles: that we each survive through eight Dynamics which includes the having and rearing of children.

What could possibly justify the eradication of children you ask?

Oooh, lack of "efficiency"! Plus, the Sea Org was not “set up to handle or take care of children.” Huh? Every human being is set up to create children. If you don’t believe it, just look between your legs.

Does this start to sound just a tad "Third Reich" to anyone?

Instead of just throwing togerther some fitness boards, fixing up an org board, firing a mission or two... just eradicate all Sea Org children. It’s David Miscavige’s Final Solution: exterminate every fetus since fetuses are small and cannot fight back. Why go to the trouble of gassing people like Adolf Hitler when you can just take care of them when they are only about an inch long?

I am not looking for sympathy here. These are simply facts. But woven through these facts is the plight of hundreds or even possibly thousands of children who really deserved much better. Kids need love, patience and care. Perhaps this sounds a little soft, but it isn't. To deny this in families is cruelty of the first order.

Imprisoning Children

Like most marriages in the Sea Org, when my father moved up the org board, he was coerced into divorcing my mother. I was fifteen at the time and it was a huge loss.

Shortly thereafter I got into trouble and was assigned to the RPF.

I was sixteen when I was in the RPF and I had lots of company! There were about 40 minors at the time in the PAC RPF, all of whom were unjustly assigned. But I was a good student. I was a good worker, as most minors were. I spent 2 years in the RPF! Many kids spent much more time in the "R" as it was called.

A key injustice of the RPF (besides being there at all), is that if you're a minor you have no choice but to do the program. You cannot leave the Sea Org, as your parents are in the Sea Org.

So, this is false IMPRISONMENT of CHILDREN. This is Final Solution #2: If you can’t kill them when they are a fetus, imprison them when they are a child.

I remember one occasion where a young man who worked in the same org as me announced at the dinner table, "I don't like RPFers because they're f__k-ups."

One month later, he was in the RPF, and one month after that, he blew.

Kids didn't have the luxury of escaping/blowing. Children toiled doing the same labor as adults from 6:00  AM 'till 5:00 PM.  And, same as adults, any kind of infraction was immediately punished by running laps or doing push-ups, or worse yet, getting assigned to the RPF's RPF, where one slaved in "Rat's Alley" all day and well into the night.

I suddenly found myself there, and I remember being covered with the horrific smell of rotten food slime. And I do mean covered! I thought, "What the hell am I doing here?" But, then again, I had no choice.

In the RPF there is absolutely no time off and no liberties (read my other article on the RPF in this site). There were no exceptions for children. In fact, as we were smaller, some children were brutalized by some adults (there was a small group of people in the RPF with their share of psychotic tendencies).

At 5 PM we had dinner and "redemption" time and lights out at 11 PM. This was tough but we got some auditing and I did experience gains from auditing despite the fact that I needed more rest and food. Despite the fact that I did not want to be there. Despite the fact that I saw very little of my mom and dad. Despite the fact that the RPF I/C was a total Nazi, and despite the fact that I had been unjustly assigned to the RPF in the first place. And despite the fact that no child should be forced to do hard labor.

The application of actual Scientology gave me some very big wins on the RPF. Those were the last wins I had with Scientology during my career in the Sea Org, however.

Unbelievably, life would get even worse than my 2 years in the PAC RPF.

Like I said though, unbelievably, the Sea Org would get far worse.

At the Int Ranch, kids worked for most of the day. Parents had very little time with their kids. It was mainly hygiene-time on Sunday mornings. But kids (from ages 4 on up), spent their nights in dorms at the ranch.

Many kids missed their mothers greatly and were restimulated in this environment. It was militaristic in that there were musters like at Gold, and kids would have to do heavy MEST work without a choice.

Sea Org children never had a choice to be there at all. This violates the very core of Scientology and the philosophy of self-determinism.

As does Flag Order 3905.

If your blood isn’t running cold by now consider this: There was an instance when Justin Miscavige and Matt Price accidentally injured a staff member at the Ranch and Miscavige assigned them the condition of "Child."

This was considered far worse than Confusion. (Goes to show you how he felt about children). In his book, Science of Survival, LRH explained what a low-toned person does to the second dynamic:

At the tone level of Covert Hostility you can expect: "Use of children for sadistic purposes"

At the tone level of Anger you can expect "Brutal treatment of children"

"At 1.5 we enter the band of brutal treatment of children, heavy corporal punishment, the forcing of the child into a mold with pain, breaking his dramatizations, upset about his noise or clutter.

"At 1.1 on the Tone Scale there may be two reactions to children. There may be an actual and immediate desire for children as a manifestation of sex, but we also may have the use of children for sadistic purposes. And we may find both of these in the same individual. We have a long-term general neglect of children, with an occasional sporadic interest in them. We have very little thought for the child's future or the culture in which the child will grow up." -- LRH, Science of Survival

And there’s more:

"It is notable, as one glances down this column, that an interest in children includes not only in the bearing of the child, but in the child's well-being, happiness, mental state, education and general future. We may have a person on the 1.1 level who seems very anxious to produce a child. Very possibly this person is following an engram command to have children. Once the child is born, we may have, in this 1.1 bracket, an interest in it as a plaything, or a curiosity. But following this, we get general neglect and thoughtlessness about the child and no feeling whatsoever about the child's future or any effort to build one for it. We get careless familial actions, such as promiscuity, which will tear to pieces the family security upon which this child's future depends. Along this band, the child is considered a thing, a possession.

"A half a tone above this, in the anger band, the child is a target for the dramatizations which the individual does not dare execute against grown-ups in the environment -- a last-ditch effort to be in command of something. Here we have domination of the child with a constant warping of its character.

"The whole future of the race depends upon its attitude towards children..."
-- L. Ron Hubbard, Science of Survival

Call it what it is: Human Trafficking

In about 1996, the Cadet Org and the Int Ranch were disbanded and all children were suddenly and ruthlessly sent thousands of miles away to be posted in orgs. The point being that, hundreds of children were robbed of a childhood, their families, and in most cases, their education.

I have been making this argument for years. I refuse to accept Miscavige’s medieval prohibitions which redefine a “child” as a criminal act punishable by Comm Ev and banishment.
I’d love to hear Tommy Davis -- that wicked and braying jack ass -- trying to hee-haw out some kind of an “acceptable truth” designed whitewash his boss’s felonious behavior. He can’t tell the real truth because that is punished in the “church.”

Written by Arthur Doyle 

Yolanda Howell's Story.

The ill-effects of scientology on my family were
devastating and permanent.  When we joined scientology we
were generally a loving and happy family.  We had just built an
upscale house in the suburbs with all the amenities.  My
husband and I sought to provide our family with the stability
and caring that they required.  I was only 21, and had three
children, ages four months, one year and three years.
Within one year after joining scientology we were
divorced and had moved the children four times.  My children
and I were living in squalor in the Sea Org.
I joined scientology staff at the local mission.  This
quickly drove my husband crazy.  He came to the mission to
kill everyone and threatened to blow his head off with a
shotgun.  I acquired sole legal custody after the incident.
Someone at the mission "handled" him and he went on staff,
too.  He could not pay child support.
I joined the Sea Org after being told by a Flag recruiter
that we would be given a "lovely" apartment.  My children, over
my protests, were taken from me and sent to live at the Cadet
Org several blocks away.  I was given training which I later had
to pay back as a freeloader's debt.  The promises of a
wonderful environment -- the most ethical on the planet --
were lies.  The slum in my home city did not even approximate
the vile conditions to which we were subjected in scientology.
My children were kept filthy -- their toys and clothing were
distributed throughout the Cadet Org.  No one owned anything.
My husband spread the rumor that I was starving my
children when the Cadet Org did not feed them properly.
When I protested the conditions of the Cadet Org and said I
needed to route out of the Sea Org to support them or get
some welfare, I was told it was unethical to use welfare and I
could not route out.  I sent my children to live with my parents
while I attempted to route out of the Sea Org.  My husband,
aided by his auditor and girl friend, stole them.
The Acting ED of the mission and my husband (who
worked there) had spread lies about me.  So after I routed out,
got back to the mission and attempted to retrieve my children,
no one would speak to me.  They gave no thought to the
welfare of my children or the fact that I had legal custody.
"Wog" laws don't matter in scientology.  My ex worked on
staff all day and night.  So, from a very early age, my oldest
daughter was left to baby sit the younger children, including
neighbors'.  He married a woman who believed Hubbard's idea
that it was better if the real parents did not raise their own kids
-- mutual engrams, you know.  So, they proceeded to neglect
my children, causing my oldest daughter to become unstable
and criminal, and my five year old son to get hit -- and killed -
- by a car as he played, unsupervised, in a busy street.  They
swore he was "protected by postulates."
I was ostracized by people at the mission and I was not
allowed input regarding my children's upbringing.  But, at least
I could see my children occasionally.  I had been forbidden to
criticize their upbringing.  I feared loss -- yet again -- of my
children, if I spoke up.
Although I had said I was done with scientology, I was
told I could never see my children again unless I came up with
the money for auditing and my freeloaders debt.  I was also
told that I would be declared (Suppressive) if I told anyone
what they had done with my children.  The Acting ED said that
he intended to lie and say I had blown the Sea Org so no one
would listen to me, anyway.  They paid no attention to the
harm they were doing to my children by abruptly depriving
them of their mother.  I had been their major supporting parent
since their births.
When my daughter was five, she put razor blades in her
step mother's purse to "get even."   My son clung to anyone
with long dark hair (like mine) and my second daughter was
also hit by a car.  She was not killed.  Her eye, however, was
permanently damaged when she was two.  Another scientology
child of eight was left to baby sit her and five other children.
The scientologist whose house they were using was a
beautician and had left her supplies lying about.  My daughter
had rubbed hair dye into her eye.
I baby sat other staff members' children and really
loved them.  One thing was common in all families (most had
one or more divorces):  the children were all deprived of a
normal, secure upbringing.  In the Sea Org, many exec families
had me baby sit during my "enhancement time" because the
conditions in the Cadet Org were so bad.  Later they all were
ordered to send their children to the Cadet Org, anyway.
Several children got in legal trouble for roaming the streets of
Los Angeles, unsupervised.  Their parents got in trouble for not
handling their kids, in spite of the fact that they were given no
time to do so.  Sea Org activities demanded the children and
parents were deprived of each others' company.  The children
were deprived of adequate love and guidance.  Instead they
were given Hubbard's trite phrases with which to guide their
lives.  They were never taught to think or reason beyond using
a "Hubbardism."
One little baby I knew in the Sea Org got herpes during
a Cadet Org epidemic.  A 14 year old girl disclosed to me how
she and a few other little girls were leaving the Cadet Org in
the daytime and performing sexual services for one of the girl's
uncles in exchange for money.  A man who worked in the
Cadet Org admitted he was sexually molesting the children.
Although these incidents were written up, as far as I know they
were never "handled."
I saw one staff member's child, who had been declared
a Suppressive Person at age 12, turned out onto the street
with no means of support.  When he tried to sneak into the
galley line to get some food, he was physically jumped by two
adults who forced him outside again.
One woman's baby became very ill -- thin and colicky --
after using the Hubbard's "baby formula."  We were not
allowed to say it was bad, however.  How I respected her for
saying that it was hurting her baby and she was going to give
him formula!  He then recovered fully.
Another family always delivered their children at home
and never reported the births.  If their children ever want to
join society, there will be no record of them.  I knew of
another baby who died during a home birth with the cord
wrapped around its neck -- a simple procedure with adequate
hospital care.  But scientologists don't believe in that sort of
My children, those who managed to survive a
scientology upbringing, are ill adjusted and have all sorts of
social problems.  My middle daughter, who rejected
scientology as the thing that "broke up her family," has
managed to graduate from college through hard work and
scholarships.  Her family made a lot of money, but it was
dedicated to the "bridge."  She does not really want a career,
however.  She says all she wants is a stable family where she
can share love -- something she never had growing up.
The atrocities that have been committed against children
by individuals using scientology "technology" are reprehensible
enough to provide cause to place the cult in government
receivership.  But if government agencies cannot or will not do
anything, then we must.  We must speak out via pamphlets,
books, films, videos, interviews and any other media.  Only by
joining together and speaking out publicly can we protect other
children from the horrors to which our own were subjected.
Yolanda Howell

Monday, 19 March 2012

FBI Investigation of Scientology.

I could have told you Tony, you were wasting your time.

There was much talk on message boards about an FBI investigation, are you kidding me? If the FBI were doing an Investigation on anything, nobody would know about it, except the FBI and Scientology. End of!

You may think I am an idiot David Miscavige, but I was brought up much the same as you, the difference is, I don't like lies and deceit and frame ups and disconnection and yet more lies and I am not motivated by money. I've never had any, so it does not matter.

You think swanning about in a boat with the rich and famous makes you immortal? Sounds like Science fiction to me, but then you'd know Co$ you stole it all from L. Ron Hubbard.

What matters to me, what will always matter to me is those little kids, the ones that have NO future in the cadet org and the Sea Org and ALL those now adults who went through what we did as young children owe it to ALL those young kids today to fight for the rights we were denied.

Do you really want those children to go through what we did? We have the ability to stop that, so let's do it. You know who we are, and you know where I am.

It's ALL about conscience and I could not sleep at night, can you?

I curse the day I finally started speaking out and there's NO going back now.I no longer have the life I would have wanted, but there are times when I can finally sleep.

Think of your childhood, think of your children's childhood and then think some more of those children who will endure what you did as a child, because you say nothing.

I can't say it plainer than that, I hope you are listening to me.

Sunday, 18 March 2012

You don't know who to trust anymore. ... It makes it hard for me to know who I should trust.''


That's Scientology in a nutshell, who the hell do YOU trust?

Life away from Scientology did not have these problems, now, even after ALL these years ???

A little kid, like those on the buses doesn't have a hope in hell! And don't tell me little kids know how to deal with this, and don't tell me Margaret  Hodgeson is a wonderful woman and Green fields School only has a hundred pupils, IT IS 100 too damned many! And don't you tell me anything, because YOU were adults, not children when you entered this cult! Children DID not have a choice, and that includes LRHs own children.And do you believe any of us would have wanted this? Seriously! I grant you everyone of us would have chosen a different path had an option been available, but what do you do, you follow your parents, because supposedly they know better. Not always!

So ALL of YOU independent Scientologists can get off your high horses , stop trying to pretend you know everything and get a clue.

You are so damned stuck up your own arse, you wouldn't know shit if it was coming your way, and believe me it is coming your way. Big Time!

Don't you ever try and bully me ever again! EVER! That isn't a threat, It's a Promise!

Oh NO, not the 49 year old news!

Thursday, 15 March 2012

LRH - Spooky Stories.

Darth Xander has produced some amazing footage of little children that look really unhappy.
How many little children does it take, that look that unhappy does it take for law enforcement to make a stand, and say "enough is enough". "Let's shut this place down!"

Or is it that law enforcement does not care?

Darth Xander's Grand Mother has flowers sent her, whom basically want Darth to know they know all about him.

This happened to me, when I started protesting Scientology. They did not come directly to me, that would be far too subtle.They sent a letter to my Father, an old disabled man whom had been declared an Sp in 1969, and they asked him if he had lived at an address and taken Scientology courses at this time, for their records, 30 odd years after the fact. He had changed address many times. How the hell did they know where he lived? They never contacted him until I started protesting. It's routine, I am told, Bollachs!

I still kept protesting, so they then started putting Scientology material through my youngest child's door. In other words we know exactly who you are, we know where you live, and we know where your children live.

They made a point, of sending cease and desist letters to my young anonymous friends, to create a threat.Don't go near this woman, or you'll end up in big trouble. We know where you live, we know who you are and we don't take kindly to you doing what you are doing.No, well they wouldn't would they?

Recently I had a dialog with an exScientologist and they said and quite rightly so " You know, as well as I do, the goal of Scientology is to take over the world", Yes, I did know that, it was drummed into me as a very young child.

Now who could create that, Scientologist, Freedom medal winner Tom Cruise. I suggest every person on this earth protests and boycotts ALL Tom Cruise movies.

If every person boycotts Tom Cruise movies,and I don't care what people say, this movie star supports the abuse of young children, in the EPF, the RPF, NOT his children, they live a different life, a life made out of money, stardom and fanaticism.And YOU the people think this is OK.

What if this was YOUR child?

Now let's look at Suri Cruise:

Can you actually spot the difference?

To be continued.....

Wednesday, 14 March 2012

Reply to Terril Park's thread on ESMB;

I am posting this here because ESMB will NOT let me post this. I have tried multiple times.
I have spoken to several exes and recently an old time ex scientologist and we are all of the opinion that this breeches freedom of speech. I spent a lot of time writing this to ensure I was not being against board rules. What a crock!

[QUOTE=Terril park;669995]Clearly you need to educate yourself further.

   Halting aging is not possible and will never be so IMO.

   We are really talking about optimum health.

   If one has travelled the third world, I have, one see's people who
seem quite old at age 40 or so. Mostly down to poor nutrition, and that in
itself causes stress. Stress can cause a tenfold increase in needed nutrients. If one dosn't recieve them the body cannabolises from less important areas to keep core parts, heart, brain, etc functioning. Thus
poor skin, muscle and bone for example.[/QUOTE]

Clearly, you need to educate yourself.

This post sounds like you are trying to promote a stress test, it's what scientologists do, it's the earliest form of indoctrination into Scientology.

If you have traveled in the third world then you know how children are underfed, neglected due to lack of resources, many die very young due to lack of resources. Many also die of aids due to lack of education of their parents.

But let's come up to present time in the western world, in America, in England,in fact around the world children are being abused and neglected on a daily basis, some of those children are the children of Scientologists, some of those neglected children are abused daily, are neglected daily, will never know about nutrition and optimum health and how to counter act aging because all they will be studying is L. Ron Hubbard's books. How to be a scientologist. The nearest they might learn about nutrition is the purification rundown.

Amy Scobee took so much niacin she had green gunk oozing out of her body. Now that's really healthy isn't it? Following Hubbard's technology! Is that proof that the purif works or proof that that is not healthy? She didn't know anything else, she'd been there since she was 14, if my memory serves me correctly.

Janis, my childhood friend from the Apollo was indoctrinated from around the age of 4 yrs old, she finally left in around 1996. L. Ron Hubbard was her Guardian. She never knew anything else.

Right now in Clearwater, Florida there are young children and I mean young, 7,8,9 years of age who look to be living in total misery. Do you understand that?They are in the Sea Org, I am not the only person to think they are in the EPF. Do you understand what that means, especially to a 7, 8 or 9 year old? I know you have looked at the thread and yet you choose to talk about something totally benign.Something totally unrelated to Scientology at all.Why would you do that?

You continually tell people you are against the abuse inside of the "church" of Scientology, but where do you ever actually state the abuses?All I ever see and I am sure many others also are your continual "success stories", that miraculously happen when doing scientology outside of the church.

Apparently you had many "wins" on OT III, try telling that to these kids:

Look at their faces and remember them well, next time you post your success stories.

Maybe I don't understand message board rules, well, I'll blame that on my lack of education.